I just decided to delete the whole chunk of words i just wrote. Instead i'll summarise what i wanted to say with this more implicit question. "Do you play because you want to win, or do you win because you want to play?"
I admit i was really immature in terms of my thoughts and behaviour. I realise I had been wrong. I was proved wrong by myself. One year in Nj softball team has really taught me a lot. I had always been wrong about losing and winning, for i forgot passion is most important. Wins come with passion. Defeats manifests without passion.
The mind is really a powerful object. I had always believed in this adage, but i never ever told myself how i should make use of what i understand. I keep telling people the mind is a powerful tool, i keep making statements that the mind is a powerful weapon, however i never once utilise what i preach about. I had never make use of my mind to make me do right things and to improve myself. Instead, i use my mind to console myself that everything is alright when i should use my mind to tell me that i have to change.
I realise, i am enlightened, i swear i will do it. Nobody believes, i didn't believe either. People chuck the statement aside, hence I laugh it off. Everybody thinks its impossible, therefore i think its impossible too. I was always a STUPID person. This time round, i cross examine myself again. I am not going to care how people think and what people think. I am going to work on what i think is right and what i think i can do. Believe to see instead of seeing to believe.
I made a vow. Here.
~yoz~bert~yoz~
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