I felt completely like a drug addict who is undergoing the famous 'cold turkey' treatment in a rehabitation centre. Alright, probably not that bad, but that is the best analogy i can come up with.Many factors come into play, and of course the main factor is probably me trying to force myself not to maple and getting myself to spend hours in a single day(first time after months) to focus on maths and nothing else. So i deeply apologise for those i acted weird to yesterday and sincerely thank all those who helped to cheer me up intentionally or unintentionally (:
I realised how addicted i am to the virtual world. Yesterday morning till the evening, i was at orchard library doing maths with wee teng. Everything went well until i started on so many questions which i kept getting stuck at. I guess maths can be a boon or a curse. When you successfully solve a hard question, you felt like you are in heaven. However after long hours of thinking and you are still stuck at a question, you felt like you are in hell. Yeap. So after that when i got home, i really had the urge to maple. This time i haven't deleted maplestory from the com. And gosh, how terrible it is when you are just less than 1 metre away from the maple world, but you yourself prevent yourself from getting into it. And i was having bad stomachache which probably made things worse. So yea that night, i spent my time doing maths homework and on msn while torturing myself because i really really had the strong urge to maple!! And many who talked to me yesterday witnessed the bad side of me. Blunt wilbert! Pardon me again.
I came to a conclusion. Virtual world can indeed be as harmful as drugs, or anything that you want to use to get yourself away reality. I assume there are many people out there in the world who are equally addicted to maple story or any other online games. This is what i figured is so attracting about online games. For many, it's just to try out something their friend recommended or something to kill boredom for awhile. This, i guess is perfectly alright. Yet after awhile, there are people(like me) who had actually got so into the game that we play the game to get ourselves away from reality.
In the virtual world, you start on a new life, embark on a new journey. So many worries that manifest in the reality world is now gone once you entered the virtual world. For games like maplestory for example, the stronger you get or the richer you are, more people in the game will respect you. Human nature i figured has been such that everyone actually at some point of a time have dreams of excelling in something in their life. For many who can't in the reality, the games are their saviours. For games like maplestory, etc, the more time you spent playing productively, the better your character will become. So this is one reason why many people fall to the trap of the virtual world. To get rid of the worries they have in the reality world and get the respect of ingame players. However as i had mentioned earlier on, the virtual world is a trap, the catch is that it only helped to get rid of ur worries temporily and the amount of time you spent escaping from the reality is directly proportionate to the amount of worries that will be added to what worries you have in the reality world. Of course, i said earlier on, this only applies to the few or to the many that had turned to the virtual world as a source of refuge, not those who turned to the virtual world due to a curiosity or just to kill boredom for a short period of time. Yet again the later cases might developed into the former case of turning to the virtual world as a source of refuge.
What is mentioned above is just how i felt and what i guess had happened to me. There are many other reasons out there why people are actually so obssessed with the virtual world. And i guess this will help many who are addicted to maple. If you are really determined to stop urself from getting hooked up to whatever harms that you are associated to, you can definitely succeed, just don't give up! Haha i don't know if you might think i am the best person to preach this, but this time i am really determined to quit maple and turn to the reality world as a refuge instead. It is starting to work and i can see the effects. Tata!
~yoz~bert~yoz~
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