The way i handle it was really bad i realise. Perhaps i shouldn't have done anything at all. I knew I wasn't ready. I know no amount of apologies will help. Please don't think I am trying to avoid you. I just don't know how to face you. I don't dare to. If you are reading this, please know i still treat you as a friend, in fact a good friend if possible.
~yoz~bert~yoz~
3:13 AM
Finally the season of the year is here again. Finally, all the hard work we have put in for a year are going to be put into test. Though there were lots of disruptions and commotions in between, nobody really cares about them now. Throughout this one year period, i'm sure everyone has improved. No one wants to lose, yet someone has to lose. Everyone wants it, yet someone definitely wants it more than the other one. I really don't know what the outcome will be like, but personally i'll definitely give my best. I have trained hard for this day to come. So much sacrifices made for that one silverware. Even though it might just be a medal, it is the pride of a sportsman which i am fighting for. No, i won't give it up so easily! Watch out all of u others! ^^ If any of u, my team-mates are reading this, yea let's psyche ourselves up for the games mann! We want it, and we want it badly!
~yoz~bert~yoz~
6:37 AM
Damn it i can't sleep. It's 1.28am for your information. To be exact, i just woke up. I don't know but i really can't sleep. There are so many things running in my mind now, of which a large extent is related to softball. Simply put, we won both our games today. The first one was ok but the second was really a bad win. I don't know about the others, but i suppose i really deserve those scoldings. Sigh baserunning, something i always thought is not a hard thing. Yet today, i was simply so blur. Come to think of it, i have always been blur when it comes to baserunning. Bleh. I really don't know if the two wins today are blessings or curses. Because of these two wins, we have a chance at 4th. Hence tomorrow's last game against HC is really really important. It's literally something or nothing. I feel the pressure. I know i should be resting now. I understand i should relax and calm down. I can't. I just hope that i don't err tomorrow.
~yoz~bert~yoz~
10:28 AM
So I decided to blog again. Being a paranoid kid, i suspect that blogging has some negative effects on my life. I meant, everytime i blog, something unfortunate will happen to me in my life. I know it's so unrelated, but that's how i feel :X However I can't be bothered anymore, perhaps i can use this instance to prove myself wrong.
Anyw i really don't know what to blog nowadays. I see no point in sharing things that upset me or things that cheer me up with everyone anymore. Haha in fact the virtual world has lost its charms on me already. Perhaps not totally, but compared to the past, i'm relatively much more indifferent about it nowadays.
Really, I don't know what to blog. If you want to know more, come talk to me instead. I prefer sharing my thoughts via chatting instead of blogging (: Oh yes but the tagboard is still functional.
~yoz~bert~yoz~
7:09 AM
