Emotions are brimming, heaven is pouring. Will I make it through the rain?

Overconfidence, overestimation of myself, and due to these I ended up cutting myself with my own sword which has no doubt grew too long and dangerous for my own good. I can blame it on a hell lot of factors, but I know that no excuses can ever refute this unassailable truth-I suck.

I have never felt so vulnerable before, my self esteem and confidence have never fallen so low. What was the problem here, I couldn't figure out. Probably the only thing that make sense is I am too lousy and too slow to even attempt to catch up with the cheetahs.

Times have changed, and I have always been shrouded by delusions which are woven by myself. No matter how hard I try to cover up my disappointment by acting like a kid, deep down I stil feel like shit. I feel that I am really shit. Because this time round, I tried but failed and I have no excuses or reasons to cover up for that failure.

This time I am defeated, by my ownself. Laugh at me. Jeer at me. Call me a loser who can't face up to my own failures. I don't care, because that is probably what I would do to myself too.

~yoz~bert~yoz~
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