Emotions are brimming, heaven is pouring. Will I make it through the rain?

It was still a nothing but a hamster to us when it first joined our small family of 4 two years ago. To date, it has already become a member of our family when it left the world. 'Nai nai' what my younger sister named it, died today. It died when all of us were around it, looking at it and praying for it. My mom and sis cried quite terribly, especially my mom who had spent a lot of time playing with it. Below is the picture of it which I took 1 hour just before it died.

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The atmosphere was really quite solemn and filled with an air of sadness. I could feel it even though I rarely spent time with it. However it is a totally different case for my parents and sister. They spent a lot of time on it, playing with it. I still remember there was once when we thought we lost 'Nai nai'. My sis had played with it late at night and forgot to close its house's door. My mom discovered it gone the next day and was so totally mad at my sis. We all thought it had disappeared but it popped out three days later and my dad suddenly exclaimed in joys the moment he saw it appearing. We thought it was gone then, but now it really had left us. We just buried it awhile ago. Yea it's really very sad.

~yoz~bert~yoz~
7:16 AM

4 years, they have been lying low. They allowed me to do whatever I want at my own pace, silently believing that in the end everything will be alright. I didn't prove them wrong, however that was only during the start. I changed a lot, slowly over time, and hopefully not irreversible yet. Now they are back in action, with their strict rules and high demands. A part of me tell me I should be relieve that the police are back doing their job, another part of me which have grown more noctorious over the 4 years detest the idea of the police coming back. The moment they came back into action, they implemented a few rules as appetizer. Wow, I really hope the main course won't be too good.

~yoz~bert~yoz~
8:04 AM

I just realised there's this song, which is so good I'm totally hooked onto it, in my wmp which I haven't ever noticed until few days ago. 'Do you know' by Enrique Iglesius. Ping Pong balls are used to make the background beats, cool aye!

Enrique Iglesias - Do You Know lyrics

~yoz~bert~yoz~
9:04 PM

For those out there who are quite disappointed with CTs, well don't get too sad anymore. CTs are over and we should look forward to the stuffs awaiting us after CTs. One thing here to keep you all looking forward to your grades, is what i call the '4 alpha word' game. Haha using the 4 grades you get from your CTs papers, try forming a word with them.

Yea I know many of us will be getting Us and yea even though that's not a very nice alphabet, but looking at the bright side, it's quite important if you want to play the word game. Firstly in order to form any words, you will need a vowel. Look here, U is a vowel! It's not the end of the world if you get U. If you get S, hey how many words out there only use vowels and not consonance, hence S is important too! For example, SUCS(sucks)! Haha! Or SUSU(milk in malay). Well for the smarty pants out there, you guys can form words like ABBA(the famous group of singers), BABA(black sheeps). Haha there are just so many permutations you can form with you grades. Isn't this fun!? Yes i know this is cheap thrill lol!

~yoz~bert~yoz~
6:18 AM

Today is the last day of enrichment, and it was a great day as usual...Perhaps not the moments when I reacted on impulse, but it was really just my natural instinct to react that way. It was for pride, it was for dignity, it was out of spite.

Ah well grr Teresa and Michelle drew a lot of unfriendly stuffs on both of my hands, and no matter how i rubbed and washed, they wouldn't get off my hands. >< The drawings i made on their hands were far nicer and more artistic mann.

Had a nice long talk with Xiao Ying on the bus, why it feels great to talk to my good friend again after 1 month of missing-in-action. P.S. Yeap, he will be ok luh, don't worry so much.

I'm trying to type in proper paragraphs, but that's just not me today. So Ciao. Oh yea I sneaked out of the lt showing 'great expectation' and went to watch 'the constant garderner'. It was really sad but very good and meaningful.

~yoz~bert~yoz~
5:28 AM

Finally we have come to the end of the second last day of enrichment week. Today has been quite fruitful, at least for me I think ;D We shall skip the arts education program because I only made it to school in time for me to get my card stamped=p Next I went to bowling and the only other ip ppl i know was Ernest. Actually there was Maricelle too but she was with her tennis people. So in the end, Ernest and I bowled together with Yuan Liang and Felicia. They were Ernest's og mates, haha very nice people=p I don't know what's up with me today, I was super high! XD Anyway, we learnt all the basics there, as a matter of fact, 'they' learnt all the basics there, not me. Yeap I know that I'm still not good with the basic straight balls but hello since I'm there, I must learn something new right! So I asked Felicia to show me roughly how the hook works. If you don't understand what I am talking about, there are basically 3 types of bowling techniques-straight, hook and spin. Hook is the most stylish in my opinion, and I have been trying to pick them up. So when the teacher wanted us to keep practising the statics of the basics, I tried to do the hook when he wasn't looking. It wasn't easy, because even Felicia wasn't exactly sure of how to carry out the hook. Haha, but hard work pays off, I managed to learn the hook and carry it out successfully 90% towards the end, albeit the positioning was still very off. BUT who cares, I learnt the hook mann! I learnt the hook! WHOO!

After that, Ernest and I went for lunch with Felicia and Icelle(I think it's spelt like that). Mainstream people are really quite nice and fun mann, I just don't understand why there must be this ip-mainstream separation. Ernest had to leave first because he had bodybalance, yea he needs to learn how to balance his body lol! XD So left the three of us and we had desserts before leaving. Icelle and I both ordered red ruby and it was really entertaining watching Icelle and Felicia discussing about desserts and somehow it went on to Bird's nest and a lot of other stuffs. Took train home with them and for one of the rare times, I alighted before the others do. I saw this super nice j3 senior boarding the train when I alighted. I forgot her name(Li Juan or smething><) and tried to ask her for it, but i think she misheard and thought I was asking her where she's going. People around us must have thought I am a crazy guy or something XD Went home, showered and fell into a deep slumber till dinner XD

~yoz~bert~yoz~
5:28 AM

There are things that money cannot buy in this world. There are emotions that winning cannot get you too in this world. For the first time, I didn't feel disappointed or sad for losing, especially getting a position short of winning something. This was so because I knew taking part in that competition alone was already very worth it. Ii had a lot of fun, and that was something winning would not have allowed me to get.

Yeap I didn't regret one bit for taking part in the OAC adventure challenge, and must thank Sasha for asking me to join her team, replacing Justin. Our team consist of Sasha, Marianne, Aaron, and I. The race started off with a run in the rain at East Coast park. I ran a lot, and it was my first time running in such bad weather, yet it was awesome. We made a mistake there, I ran all tha way back just for one clue and wasted everyone's time at the check-point. From there, we were delayed for a long time. However, looking at it from another perspective, it was a blessing in disguise. From that point onwards, the real fun sets in.

We happened to be on the same pace with Adeline's(If I didn't get the name wrong) group consisting of Zhi kai, Darren, Adeline and Valerie. We started working together from that point onwards, specifically at Pulau Ubin. Those people were a real bunch of fun guys. Haha Adeline talks a lot, well but that's what keeps our two teams awake throughout the whole race. It definitely feels better completing the race with two teams, and not just any two teams, but in particularly Adeline's and our team. It was the right match of personalities.

As i mentioned earlier on, we went to cycle at Pulau Ubin and that was again my first time cycling there. We even stumbled upon the discovery trail which seemed quite scary because of the narrow routes and the very steep slopes. We all enjoyed cycling down the steep slopes but Marriane was careless on one of the slope and fell off her bike. I was behind her bike and it seemed quite scary. Nonetheless, that experience couldn't be explained by words.

Next we went to do abseiling at Sengkang mrt station, it was my first time abseiling from such a high floor too. When I looked down, I was really scared, and I kept asking for assurance that the carribeana was secured. After that, we went to Bishan to do vertical marathons. Gosh that was the most physically and mentally demanding of all. We climbed a total of 46 storeys and trust me, its not easy when its a race.

Time is short because I have to rush for something already so I shall keep this short and simple. After the vertical marathon, we took a bus to Adam road and from there we had to run all the way back to school. The next great part was when both our teams decided to cross the finishing line at the same time. It was really great because in this race, our both teams had fun together while trying to finish the race with both results, and most importantly, we weren't afraid of each other backstabbing us. That was the greatest part of the race. Well we planned on finishing joint 5th and combine our team names, 'touch me' and 'soccer touch' to 'soccer touch me' but because our team has more penalties so in the end Adeline's team got 5th and we got 6th. Nonetheless, whoohoo, it was simply too great.

After washing up and prize presentation, we went to curry wok to have our dinner. Val and Zhi Kai had to leave first. Haha we had so much there that we had to order a second serving of dishes! I went home, bathed and fell onto my bed and didn't wake up till 11+ earlier on. Three cheers for team 'touch me' and team 'soccer touch'.

~yoz~bert~yoz~
10:35 PM

I just discovered a new found interest-ICE SKATING! Well in fact i think I have an interest in most of the sports activities. Yeap so today was when the fun start, I had ice skating session and had a wheel of my time there, probably just discount the morning when i rushed my way to school so that I won't miss the bus fetching us from school to fuji ice palace. Well when i reached school, i was informed that we were actually 1 hour earlier because the skating rink won't be opened till 9+? Gahh, make me rush for nothing lol!

So we reached there, changed into skates and waited for our chance to use the rink. Guess what, I was walking quite easily with the skates outside the rink and i thought i could balance myself inside the rink, many people thought so too=p On the contrary, once i got into the rink, I lost my balance and fell, yes i was the first casualty lol! It was my second session so it was ok I guess. However like what many say, failure is the mother of success, I picked myself up and was soon able to skate properly already XD

I didn't fall again until during the introductory lesson when we were asked to do the turn. Haha this young guy just whiz past me and I was caught by surprise and I landed on my butt. Lol it was bad! That wasn't the worst fall of the day though, the worst one was when i tried picking up speed and got so excited that i jumped into the air and landed on my knees. OUCH! My knee hurt darn badly la and I was so scared I couldn't make it for tomorrow's adventure challenge.

Well I don't think I learnt much during the lesson, but I learnt quite a bit from steph(that's how they call her by). Yeap it's Aileen's classmate, a darn pro figure skater! Whoo I didn't know Nj has hidden talents! Yeap I managed to talk to her, so I asked her for help and tips on skating. She taught me to brake properly and yeap she also taught me the steps for crossing over. Crossing over was quite hard, I kept practising but still couldn't get it at the end of the session. Well but i swear there were a few decent ones. Yeap I couldn't take the extreme pain on my feet and my legs in general anymore, that i decided to stop no matter how much I yearn to perfect the crossing over. Haha thank you steph, all the best for your competition on monday! Haha oh well, then I went for lunch with Aileen's class. A bunch of nice people who are very bonded as a class.

No one from my class went, so I was hanging around with the 04 people. Well we were all having fun until this moment when something struck us by surprise and changed everyone's mood. A few of them cried but even though I felt sad for him, it wasn't to that extreme, probably because I'm not say very close to the person. However when I put myself into his shoes, I felt scared. I seriously don't know how I would react. I was scared but I was afraid of coming up with an answer, so I continued to skate after they left because none of them were in the mood to continue. Sigh I can tell he's quite like me, strong on the outside but i bet he's soft in the inside too. This would be a big blow to his life, I seriously don't know what to do for him.

~yoz~bert~yoz~
5:12 AM

Yes that is prison break! I am watching season one now because I didn't have time to watch in the past due to all the commitments I had. Now I am a little bit more free so I coop myself up in my room and watch prison break non-stop right after I reach home. 13 episodes in 2 days, how does that sound? I think if this continue, I can forget about getting into OCS or getting into a uni and a faculty of my choice. Thankfully I noticed that I have been super duper slack over the past one month or so that if i don't correct my lifestyle, i am going to become a...

couch potato.

Well so yea I did what I should and went for a run. A little bit over ambitious of myself, I planned to run about 5 laps? In the end I was all panting only at the 3rd lap. Gosh usually I can do it properly till the end of 5 laps. Now this seriously show how bad my fitness has become ever since all the fats started to crawl and feed on my muscles. Oh yea my knee hurts a lot after the run. Sigh, my fitness is simply crap. Ah well time to start the machine again XD

~yoz~bert~yoz~
5:05 AM

Just came back from Adriel's birthday party and gosh my head is still spinning from that little vodka which Adriel made everyone drink. If you don't know how strong vodka is, that was 50% alcoholic! My whole head is spinning now, slightly though. We shouted a very long yum seng and since i have never tasted real alcoholic drinks before, I thought I could finish it up in one mouthful. Apparantly, 50% vodka is no joke and I had to spit half of the content out before finishing it again. It made my mouth, chest, head, throat, etc so hot that I was totally stunned.

Anyw yea I enjoyed myself today. Haha it was kind of the cat high reunion for them, I was the a little bit odd one out. Sigh, it was something i missed out when i left cat high for njip. I doubt there is any other way other than staying in cat high for 4 years where one can find such brotherly love. We sung the cat high school anthem after Adriel blew the candles and i could totally feel the cat high spirit in the air. Yes even though I was only there for 2 years, but I still had great memories of those 2 years I spent in cat high.

Haha I spent quite a long while at his party playing dota. Played a total of two games and like usual I was panicking throughout the game. I think i got better alr :D And yea dota is seriously fun! All the guys there, almost all are dota enthusiasts luh lol! I will be, one fine day=p

Will upload the group photo after Adriel sent me XD Happy birthday Adriel and for the one last few times, before I feel more guilty of what i have done 2 years ago...公教！突飞猛进！

~yoz~bert~yoz~
6:42 AM

Rui Shan's party at Siloso beach was really great. I think I am really blessed to know all these people. In fact not just them, but everyone around me. Without all my friends, I really don't know how life will be. True, even with all my friends, there are still times i would feel lonely and such but with them around, those moments have become really rare. Anyw haha i just learnt how to upload pictures onto my blog, just yesterday, by myself ok! :D So from now on, I'll learn to take pictures and keep these memories and share with everybody. Oh yea did I say I want to learn how to take photographs properly? There are so much stuffs in life that I want to do luh!

Anyw this is the group photo we took at vivo after dinner. From the left, Ernest(Bestie!), Yi He, Michelle('Bestie'! =p), Teresa, Rachel, Lucille, Restus(or Resmus :/), Rui Shan, Resmus(or Restus =p), Reynard and me. Adele left in the evening and Grace(My bridge partner who always causes me to lose , jk=p) left at night before this, but nonetheless thank you all of you for the great memories!

Haha this is the birthday girl buried in the sand! XD

~yoz~bert~yoz~
8:27 PM